December 2009
14 posts
Learning to say goodbye
Coming to terms with a disconcertingly melancholy week - the saddest Seattle week (if I’m allowed) - when the rain returned and the temperature went up after the cold, dry spell. Over Shultzy’s Hot Italian Sausage Burger and fries, Tugce spoke of her dissatisfaction with ‘social relationships’ here, even as she pursues two internships in town for some six month next year....
Perhaps I don't need you tonight
‘I’m very happy right now’
‘Why?’
‘Because… I am with the two people I like very much!’
Jumping off the bus two Aves too early traipsing through downtown Seattle arm-in-arm taking in the festive Green and Red lights and fairy lights draped around trees every second block Feeling solemn and, you know - the feeling of keeping your eyes open for too...
“ The time to relax is when you don’t have time for it. ”
– John Goodwin & Sydney J. Harris
Submitted by teganrebecca:
(via quote-book)
For tonight, and the morning after
What I really want to say to you is this:
Hello J, the second one, or third one, depending on how you see things. The little boy who wants to grow up too quickly. Who saw the world alone and believes he is okay with it. But do you know that sometimes we built up such shelters in our heart till we think it’s normal, and comfortable, and just part of “who I am”? I don’t...
tossing over
Conflicted between the rock and a hard place
and in many regards, it shouldn’t be so, because I know how I want to live my life, or how I believe my life should be lead. Why then, do we still seek validation and significance in places that isn’t water for our thirst, or sate for our longing?
I feel so frustrated knowing what my head knows, but not being secure enough to carry myself,...
TALKING IN BED
Talking in bed ought to be easiest, Lying together there goes back so far, An emblem of two people being honest. Yet more and more time passes silently. Outside, the wind’s incomplete unrest Builds and disperses clouds in the sky, And dark towns heap up on the horizon. None of this cares for us. Nothing shows why At this unique distance from isolation It becomes still more difficult to find...
Smoothing over your hand
i want to feel you, your pain
On the equality of women - how do we really see the role of women in society, and especially in the context of calling and ministry and faith and lifestyle? There is this notion, sometimes, that we are so advanced and modern and non-sexist because women’s suffrage came years earlier, but attitudes don’t easily succumb and transform overnight, or even in...
kiannn:
come, tell me all about love. but don’t talk about it, talk about something else. talk about what you hate. talk about who you hate. talk about your imperfect past, your mistakes, your regrets, your sense of helplessness. about the sky. about your pet pokemon. about the spider you stepped on, the fly u flicked away. tell me which hand you use when you brush your teeth. tell me why...
In love with this idea of Love
There’s something about him that I’m not letting go. The idea that I can get into his head, into his heart, into a place where he’s never let anyone in before. That lonely place, where he cannot get the validation he needs from his work and his accomplishments. I want to break through that thin veil of charm and offhand dishonest remarks. I want him to know that everything he...
Our broken bones
‘Tell me a secret.’
‘What secret?’
‘Any secret. A secret. Tell me something.’
‘But my secrets are mine to keep. They’re mine to hold. They’re my secrets…’